You can love someone and not be together. Sometimes that’s just how it works. It sucks. It really sucks. I couldn’t keep sacrificing my own happiness any more. My heart hurts. It hurts so badly knowing that I hurt him when I had to end it. I gave it my all and we still couldn’t make it work. Do you know how badly that feels? It’s the worse kind of defeat. Things were so good. How could we go from something so wonderful to this? The situation is so fucked up. I wasn’t happy with him towards the end, but now I’m not miserable knowing that he’s not in my life anymore. So where do I go from here?
I finally understand: “the hottest love, has the coldest end”